Blurb My Brain:
I feel as though I may explode from the amount of stress I am under. With the semester wrapping up, I had my final to take, and I'll be honest, I kind of half assed it. I feel this professor did not do a good job with the curriculum, and I know what I am about to say will sound crazy. I was unhappy with the final he administered. I am all for writing essays in class, but I believe that the midterms and finals should be a comprehensive test. I am fine with an essay test if it were to cover topics covered throughout the class, but this exam was an "application" test, where I apply what I "learned" to improve the security of a fake company. I mean, fine, application test away, but where did the multiple choice tests go? The definition questions? So I am upset because I didn't get a test where I could look throughout the book to find the answers. I think this contributed to the stress, because if something is too easy, it probably is.
Secondly, I'm having a rough time at the job. I feel as though I am not grasping things as well as I should be, and that my job performance is sub-par compared to the other employees. I'm probably just stressing myself out over nothing, but I just feel that I don't get the good customer feed-back that I feel other people get. Jealous? A little. But I'm not vindictive, as other people might be in the same situation, I'm paranoid. I am paranoid that while under my 90 day orientation the bosses will get tired of my little mistakes and fire me. And the gut feeling I've been having since Friday really hasn't helped matters.
Third, Kim Jong Il died on Sunday. This means very little to many Americans, as many call him Kim Jong II, which is like Kim Jong the Second. But to me, it kind of hits home. I'm very worried for Fiance, even if he isn't worried. I'm worried that Kim Jong Un will do something unpredictable, and something terrible might happen because of it. Maybe this also has to do with the fact that I'm going to Seoul? I don't know. I am just a nervous wreck right now, and my body is showing it. Down 3% body fat, and 4 pounds in 3 days. I am sure it isn't my dieting/exercise.
Tell me everything will be alright?
I feel as though I may explode from the amount of stress I am under. With the semester wrapping up, I had my final to take, and I'll be honest, I kind of half assed it. I feel this professor did not do a good job with the curriculum, and I know what I am about to say will sound crazy. I was unhappy with the final he administered. I am all for writing essays in class, but I believe that the midterms and finals should be a comprehensive test. I am fine with an essay test if it were to cover topics covered throughout the class, but this exam was an "application" test, where I apply what I "learned" to improve the security of a fake company. I mean, fine, application test away, but where did the multiple choice tests go? The definition questions? So I am upset because I didn't get a test where I could look throughout the book to find the answers. I think this contributed to the stress, because if something is too easy, it probably is.
Secondly, I'm having a rough time at the job. I feel as though I am not grasping things as well as I should be, and that my job performance is sub-par compared to the other employees. I'm probably just stressing myself out over nothing, but I just feel that I don't get the good customer feed-back that I feel other people get. Jealous? A little. But I'm not vindictive, as other people might be in the same situation, I'm paranoid. I am paranoid that while under my 90 day orientation the bosses will get tired of my little mistakes and fire me. And the gut feeling I've been having since Friday really hasn't helped matters.
Third, Kim Jong Il died on Sunday. This means very little to many Americans, as many call him Kim Jong II, which is like Kim Jong the Second. But to me, it kind of hits home. I'm very worried for Fiance, even if he isn't worried. I'm worried that Kim Jong Un will do something unpredictable, and something terrible might happen because of it. Maybe this also has to do with the fact that I'm going to Seoul? I don't know. I am just a nervous wreck right now, and my body is showing it. Down 3% body fat, and 4 pounds in 3 days. I am sure it isn't my dieting/exercise.
Tell me everything will be alright?
It'll be okay pal, things in life have there ways of working themselves out, and blossoming into a new and better flower
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