Nightmares and last chances

I haven't been sleeping well lately. I think that it's because I am secretly freaked out about leaving soon. At first it was insomnia and then just waking up randomly. Last night it escalated to nightmares all night. Dreams of bombs and being topless. Not the same dream. I just think its weird. 

For me the scariest part of me leaving is that I am actually leaving. You'd think after 8months of preparation I'd be more mentally prepared for that aspect. Lol. 

I've started eating last meals with people though. And tonight is my going away party. The last time I will drink with my Okinawa friends and possibly last time drinking before Tech School. 

But all in all I am excited. It isn't every day you begin a career you are committed to for at least 6 years. Haha. I really feel this is a great move for me. I just wish I wasn't gone so long.