Blurb my brain:
What a terrible day. Terrible doesn't even really begin to describe it. I had such an awesome day yesterday, where my job didn't suck, and things in general were just nice.
Today I paid the price for it.
Without divulging too many details, I basically got into a fight with someone I love, and have been regularly fighting with since about October. Don't worry, fiancé, that wasn't you. At least not at this point in the story. But this fight actually got me so worked up that I called my best friend, and basically screamed at her for an hour. Tears streaming, every other word was the f bomb, sobbing uncontrollably for the whole call. So amidst this rant I said "I might as well just sell my body" which was not serious, but my dearest friend and I got a good chuckle out of it so it made it to the Facebook.
That's not something you should ever post to Facebook. And here is why:
1: you may offend your Fiancé.
2: your dad may comment on it
3: sarcastic people may make you an offer, hence #1
4: other people may think your standards are low.
Well, after that life lesson, I of course felt terrible. And since I knew I wasn't going to get to explain things, my mind started foreseeing the worst case scenarios. And for someone like me, the scenarios are always over exaggerated.
I spent the rest of the day freaking out about my finances, while helping others figure out theirs. I don't know how accountants do it. It's absolutely stressful.
Quite frankly, I am so ready to be married. I can't wait to return to a normal life, and planning a wedding isn't taking place. No more arguing. No more screaming. No more crying. No more.
Maybe it stems from the fact that I really really really miss Fiancé. I just want to be with him again. I am always happiest around him. Stupid tour. Well. I guess it's time to go back to sleep and hope I dream of him.
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